[ somewhere between sena throwing his cup on the ground and shaking him like a ragdoll, tross thinks how easy it'd be to bait him a second time. full eye contact, so close he can smell the liquor on his breath, like candied coconut and honeyed rum. he could pull him under in a heartbeat and leave him with another crippling migraine, and if that's dangerously petty and cruel he doesn't fucking care.
what does it matter if he left him alone? he's been alone. he is alone.
his hands circle sena's skinny wrists, thumb touching forefinger. he roughly jerks him into his space, catching the brunt of sena's weight with his chest, and squeezes his arms hard so he'll shut the fuck up for five seconds or stop apologizing. ]
We're cool. Don't worry about it. [ no gusto, all monotone, as hollow as he feels. like he hadn't spent almost a half hour in near hysterics at some stranger's house, slamming two consecutive lines to keep from breaking down in front of a hundred watchful, curious eyes. like his face isn't still damp with damning evidence. like sena doesn't already know.
raw discomfort cracks his apathy in half. he can't look sena in the eye, so he drops his wrists and turns to punch in the code for his building, holding the door for him. ]
[ don't worry about it, he says, but sena knows they're not cool, and he is worrying about it — mistakes are the one thing he hates to make because he never knows what they'll cost him. sometimes it's a band-aid and a scolding. other times it's broken bones and his entire world.
he doesn't yet know what this one will cost, but he feels sick thinking about it as he walks through the open door, following tross with completely silent footsteps. it was supposed to be fun. a couple of nudes in tross' bed and a quick raid of his fridge. a harmless joke.
he's so fucking stupid. he made tross cry.
did he do this to delphi, too? ]
You don't have to fucking lie. I know you're mad. Just — say whatever you want to say. You want to hit me? Just don't go for the face. And you only get one shot.
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what does it matter if he left him alone? he's been alone. he is alone.
his hands circle sena's skinny wrists, thumb touching forefinger. he roughly jerks him into his space, catching the brunt of sena's weight with his chest, and squeezes his arms hard so he'll shut the fuck up for five seconds or stop apologizing. ]
We're cool. Don't worry about it. [ no gusto, all monotone, as hollow as he feels. like he hadn't spent almost a half hour in near hysterics at some stranger's house, slamming two consecutive lines to keep from breaking down in front of a hundred watchful, curious eyes. like his face isn't still damp with damning evidence. like sena doesn't already know.
raw discomfort cracks his apathy in half. he can't look sena in the eye, so he drops his wrists and turns to punch in the code for his building, holding the door for him. ]
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he doesn't yet know what this one will cost, but he feels sick thinking about it as he walks through the open door, following tross with completely silent footsteps. it was supposed to be fun. a couple of nudes in tross' bed and a quick raid of his fridge. a harmless joke.
he's so fucking stupid. he made tross cry.
did he do this to delphi, too? ]
You don't have to fucking lie. I know you're mad. Just — say whatever you want to say. You want to hit me? Just don't go for the face. And you only get one shot.