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[misarchist]

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[exradiant]

you're the first one i've met
besides delphi
it was just us two
we had a nice house in the middle of nowhere and we'd train and cook together and read and play games and shit
she taught me how to do my hair because it used to be long
she taught me everything
i didn't need anyone else

let's find them
i can make people talk
you can too

[misarchist]

[ how normal. how human. tross' early life was four steel walls, staring at a concrete ceiling for hours on end, abandoned with a hoard of other frightened children in the empty desert and skinning his knees on burning sand, wanting to cry but knowing he couldn't or he'd be culled from the flock, never able to go home again.

except home wasn't anything. home was never home. sena had an entire childhood of quasi-normalcy before he fucked it up.

he grinds his tongue between his teeth to quell a sudden urge to crawl out of his own skin, or at least end this conversation and forget ever meeting sena at all. ]

sounds like you still need her now

i don't fuck with other deviants
on purpose anyway
you shouldn't either

[exradiant]

well you're wrong
i don't fucking need her

[ but he does need her. more than that, he wants her, because everything was simple when it was just the two of them. now there are so many people that are far too easy to get swept away in and it never, ever stops. ]

i know you're kind of a fuck-up but i think between the two of us we can handle any shit that comes our way
don't you have someone you hate so bad you just wanna fucking deck them
you need a revenge plot dude

[misarchist]

no

[ he doesn't feel anything ever unless he's caught in the teetering limbo of someone else's memories and emotions. i'm full of empty things, you stupid vapid fuck. ]

unlike you i've never been stabbed in the back by anyone i've claimed to love
most people find me p agreeable tbh

whoever your de facto mom was taking orders from isn't someone you want to meet if you value your life or freedom

[exradiant]

you expect me to believe that horseshit
so no one's ever wronged you in your life
you're not even that likable

you're the one who told me to learn my history or connect to my roots or some shit

[misarchist]

everyone i've ever met has loved me
star pupil
impossible to hate
there must be sth wrong with you

i didn't mean like that

[exradiant]

whatever loser
when i find them on my own i'll be sure to tell them all about my new friend that they love and respect so much

[misarchist]

like i give a shit
you don't know me either

[exradiant]

you're a liar
you don't want anyone to know you because you know you're fucked up on the inside
at least i own my shit
you're just a baby ass moron

[misarchist]

is that why you get so fucked up you can't think
you're owning your shit

[exradiant]

you're just mad because you know i'm always gonna be better than you

[misarchist]

[ oop what was he saying abt not feeling anything again ]

fuck you
lose my number

[exradiant]

now flounce away like the punk ass bitch you are

[misarchist]

you don't even know why you're better than me
or why you think you're better than me

hope you can enjoy your soft serve without sticking your finger down your throat

[exradiant]

it doesn't matter why because at the end of the day you're still obsessed with me

and i'll stay skinny bitch
loser

[misarchist]

i think you're projecting

sure you will
i'll keep an eye on your insta